Holidays

It's been a while since I posted anything here. Life's taken on a "life" of it's own. Got too busy trying to keep up to be able to slow down enough to sit and reflect. Well....I just got done dealing with thanksgiving. This is my first one without Kevin and the kids. Surprisingly, it went well. I ate dinner with my best friend and her family. It was low key. We got dinner prepped and cooking then decided to take a nap. Dinner went well. It was a typical turkey, stuffing, mash potatoe, green bean casserole spread. Of course pumpkin pie for dessert. We decided to go out and enjoy some single gals only time after dinner. So, we danced off the calories from dinner. It was fun E, B, and I just hangin and catchin up on the latest with one another. The band and the music in between was well worth the drive out to our spot. It was a great ending to a relaxed and low key thanksgiving. I did miss the deep fried turkey and sweet potatoe pie I've gotten in the past at the in-laws. Did get that sent home to me from left overs. So, really I didn't completely miss it. I enjoyed another thanksgiving celebration with meatloaf, roasted veggies and baked sweet potatoe the day after with some friends with MS. It was nice. I could be and talk about the MS without feeling like a subject of someone's pity. It was so comforting to be understood and be around with others who get it without having to explain. That was a nice reprive from the typical celebrations. As I look back and think about my hopes and expectations for the holidays I realized I had no expectations and hopes because I didn't want to be disappointed or hurt. I did contemplate spending the holidays with the ex and the in-laws cause a part of me really wasn't ready for holidays as a single woman. In retrospect I'm glad I fought that urge. It was a great way to show the ex that I have moved forward and that my life is going on without him just fine. Now...I'm tryin to close that door of being married and with him and open the new doors of new people in my life. New friendships and new ways to enjoy my time!!!!