Mortality

When we take the time to think of our mortality do our priorities change? Do we have a clearer view of what's important? Do we start living differently? I don't know. Ever since I was diagnosed with MS I've been renavigating and negotiating a new perspective. I've learned to care less about what people think and just live every moment to it's fullest. I've learned to live outside of the box. I've learned that being always "good" isn't really living. So, then I realized that my life won't necessarily end sooner because I have an incurable disease but, that the quality of the life I may be living in the future may not be so great. So...what do I do with that reality? There's a part of me that wants to push it out of my mind until I have to deal with. To not borrow trouble before it's here. That part of me also reminds me to enjoy the good days to it's fullest when they're here and don't allow the bad days to win. Then I look @ my kids. I'm amazed!!! I'm blessed to have been able to be part of two lives who've enriched me so much more than I realized. Then I get to thinking....is it selfish to want to continue to reproduce even now knowing I may be passing on this disease? Is that kind of thinking borrowing trouble before it's here?