Update

It's obviously been years since I've posted. I've always thought of this as a space to air my thoughts so I wasn't concerned about blogging consistently. Anyways...
In 2010 I enrolled in community college.
In 2012 I graduated with my AA. And also got admittance to both 4 year universities I applied to.
Now, I'm at my dream college studying Psychology.

The kids have hit some rough patches. My son recovered well and am praying and hoping we're past it...well at least until the hormones hit. My daughter has not fared so well...she's battling a really tough patch that I'm hoping will soon pass.

My health has changed for the better...my last neuro visit she noticed as she put it, "you're in a much different place than the last time I saw you". What she was noticing was the blessings. I overcame a divorce, a chronic health condition set back and am living my 2nd chance to the fullest. I'm off all MS meds for the summer as we reassess what the progress of my disease is. And as we contend with the changes of the pituitary cyst/tumor.

As for my personal life...there's been many an options that have presented themselves. I'm somewhat ashamed to say that I actually entertained a few of them. Yet the one I will never regret has been part of the past for the last 3 years but the memory of him lingers and haunts my thoughts, dreams and sleep less nights. This reality is one I've been wrestling with. How could God allow someone that draws me away from Him to trouble my thoughts and peace?